good lord. where do i even begin. these past few weeks have been the most stressful, emotionally challenging, yet the most happy weeks i’ve had as well. not only did i get rid of something toxic, i gained back something beautiful in place of it. you. if there is one thing i regret, it’s losing you out of my life. and i could linger on how it affected us both, but let’s not do that. i feel like these past few weeks have brought us even more closer. and i didn’t even know that was possible. i’ve met a lot of people on here. fell in love here and there. but nobody captured me in ways that you did. not only do you listen to me, you also give amazing advice. you see right through me whenever i decide to put on a mask to hide my true emotions. and reflecting on my previous relationship, i’ve realized how unhealthy it was. to points where i doubted everything in me. was it enough what i did, was i enough? and then you came back and proven every little speck of self doubt that i had wrong. i don’t trust many people when it comes to them trying to comfort me. i’ve had plenty of cases where i felt like they were comforting me because they felt obligated to. but with you, none of that. you’re such a generous, honest person that i could never doubt you in such ways. the only thing i doubt you in, is that you love me more because that is no way in hell true.
i want to thank you, for everything you’ve done for me these past few weeks. from comforting me, to even going to the point of defending me. i know you’re not big on fighting so the fact that you literally went off on them lowkey made me emotional. it also made me realize that i was so goddamn stupid for letting you go. but, i refuse to let that happen again. you have always been the one that captured my heart right from the start. no matter how much i tried to deny it. i love you more than words can ever express. so, here comes the part that i’ve been thinking about asking for days now;
luca, will you be mine again?