Lunch earlier was a Gf panini filled with @quorn_uk ‘Chicken’ slices, followed by 1/2 pot of blueberry yoghurt 😋 Snack this morning was a banana energy bar and orange juice! Camhs went really well this morning, I was feeling really positive and was able to really explain how I felt clearly for what feels like the first time. By this I mean that I can now explain how I’m separate from anorexia, and I can know identify when anorexia is making a decision or when I am. My Ed nurse really feels that I am turning another positive corner and that distance between anorexia and I is growing bigger and bigger ☺️ Also maintained my weight which goes to show that having lots of ice cream in 2 days as well as pizza and eating lunch out really doesn’t make a difference, my body is getting healthy again and knows what it needs. It doesn’t need to grab on to every single piece of food I put in and is able to use the energy for everything it needs to. As long as I make sure I’m always putting the right amount it, my body will continue to work as it should and will be full of yummy food and not anorexia’s evilness.
Hope you’ve all had a lovely day so far and are fighting as hard as always x #recovery#anorexia#anorexiafighter#eatingdisorder#edfamily#mealplan#monday#lunch#snack#recoverywin#glutenfree#vegetarian#medicine#foodisfuel#weightrestoration#keepgoing#staystrong#staystrong#strongnotskinny#keepfighting#mentalhealth#mentalhealthwarrior
Sometimes, almost always, there are setbacks in healing. ••••
Maybe you feel on top of the world and like you finally have your shit together and then wake up two days later wondering how you were even able to get out of bed 🤷♀️•
It’s normal. Healing is NOT linear.
There are no specific set of instructions, no fancy manual that tells us how to H E A L... (although I reeeeally wish there was) ••••••✨
Don’t let one misstep keep you from growing and keep you from keeping on. We all have bad days - we all have days that make us wonder why we even began this process in the first place.
Remember why you started, sweets 💕✨ You. Are. Killing. It. 👏🏻👏🏻
After posting about goals yesterday and building them into my lifestyle, I wanted to share a little of where I was before that.
When this picture was taken, I was in college chilling at rock bottom, wishing and waiting for things to change. I actually first posted it on my personal account with the caption “looking for the light at the end of finals.” This was me being clever and sarcastic, but deep down, this was truth. I struggled in college, namely with my health. I was ignoring my anxiety which was getting more severe by the day, I was ignoring my growing depression and self-harm tendencies, I was ignoring the words from those who love me, and I was ignoring my highest self.
I now look at this picture with an entirely different perspective, no longer seeing the pain of who or where I was. Now I see hope, pride, and excitement in the unknown. I see beauty in the little things, growth and lessons in each day, and love in everything around me 🌻💫
This journey of mine has become my addiction; I can’t get enough of life’s lessons and the universe’s light ✨
I am saying all this not to make you feel like I’m doing better than you - but to make you feel like you CAN do this. You CAN get out of that hole, out of your rock bottom. I fucking promise you, YOU CAN.
If that scares the life out of you, then please send me a message because every single person on this entire planet deserves to THRIVE, instead of merely survive 💕
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How I’m feeling after things started to look up a little, celebrating the little things in life and the big things, recently got myself out of a rut with bad mental health, I have always described my mental health as climbing a tunnel, clawing my way through the darkness and the dirt towards that light and the fresh air. Today felt like one of those days where I finally reached the light and felt the sun on my face after so much darkness.
It does get better. 🌞
The @suttoncoldfieldyouthcouncil have partnered up with Cameron Grant Memorial Trust to raise awareness of mental illness and have been distributing their coasters across Sutton Coldfield, including in local pubs such as The Oak! A big well done to the students! #Flourish#MentalHealthAwarenessWeek
You will learn this from the moment you start interacting with other people until the day God decides to call you home, you just won’t really realize it until you’re of age. The older you are, the more it occurs to you how much stress you’re putting on yourself: bills, toxic/stressful relationships, home life, school life, etc.
Story time: My ex, we thought we would get married (🙄). We were together in middle school, broke up for like a year or two then got back together. We remained together until a few months after high school graduation. He was toxic for me but I was blinded by the idea of being in love, being the “it” couple everyone wants to be in high school. I wasn’t paying attention to the fact that I was using him to fill the empty voids that i have & he was doing the same. We were VERY wrong for each other but for a while neither me or him could see it. Everyone thought we would get married, and I think we convinced ourselves that we were perfect for each other. Things progressed to being TERRIBLE. We split a final time 2-3 months before my enlistment day into the military. Now that I look back on it, we weren’t in love at all. We were so caught up in the preconceived idea of what love was— or what we thought it was, that we ignored all the signs that we were feeding each other toxicity for a while. He moved on, and so did I. Now I’m happily married (5 months 🌞, yes we’re still newlyweds). I’m happier than ever in my relationship. My husband makes sure he tells me he loves me all the time, he listen to me, he cuddles me, he drives me to McDonald’s at 5am, we wrestle each other at 2am, he’s helping me heal & recover.. LET GO OF THAT TOXIC NONSENSE. It’s no good for you
Protect your energy, watch who you let in your life.
Mask Makeup, everyone has I different battle sometime we may not be able to see it but it’s there, others can suffer more which is why I chose to create this look to show how people can put on their own mask every day and act brave and strong but no body truly knows what goes on underneath. I wanted to make people more aware of mental health. Broken underneath. #wordcutdeeper#mentalhealth#support#beaware#beafriend#awerness 🤗🤗
...It's the last week in my 20's so I'm making it my goal to share a new image each day from one of my major projects. These images will all be ones I've been keeping under lock or otherwise have withheld from sharing. First up is a photo from my project focusing on the abstracts of mental health, In The Waiting Room. "Through Restricted Circulation We Discover Our Relation With The Transgressive Nature Of Past Masters." #MatthewTerryPhoto#fineartphotography#photography#photographer