My weekend was full of good vibes and positive energy 🙌🏾💫
#Saturday started with drinking prosecco 🍾before 12pm 😝 and meeting some amazing women I’ve met via the gram in person for @motherhood_rx 2nd Anniversary 🥂we had great conversations and so much laughter I left their buzzing 🙌🏾😁
I left the ladies and attended my beautiful Zee Zee Boom 1st Earthday celebrations 🎉 in the park my daughter from another mother has taken my guidance on finances serious and planned an fun party without the expense of a hall etc. 👊🏾 #proud We went back to the house for the after party of jokes, dancing, jerk chicken and my favourite game of ludi shouting “kill dat!” 🤣
#Sunday I attended the yearly all white party with @insight2marketing our vehicle to Hertfordshire was a luxury 8 seater with complimentary rum punch 🙃🍷and pure jokes! 🤣I totally enjoyed myself and again met some beautiful ladies from the gram in real life 🙌🏾🙏🏾 @shespeaksuk2 @creatress_yaya
I’m ready and excited about the week ahead 🙌🏾🙏🏾💜💚
Ten years ago today, just two days before my tenth wedding anniversary, my marriage was over.
I wrote this a few years later about the experience.
A Murder of One “All your life is such a shame, shame, shame
All your love is just a dream, dream, dream, dream
Open up your eyes
You can see the flames, flames, flames
Of your wasted life
You should be ashamed, ashamed, ashamed” -Counting Crows
These lyrics haunt me as I listen to them in my house.
I tell my husband, “I need to go running.”
He says, “but you don’t run.” As I run out into the darkness, listening to these lyrics, tears roll uncontrollably down my cheeks.
I am miserably married and am not a runner – yet I was running for my life. “You don’t want to waste your life, baby
You don’t wanna waste your life, now darling
You don’t wanna waste your life, baby
You don’t wanna waste your life, now darlin”
I am screaming this into the darkness, gasping for air, running as fast as I could. “Are you happy when you’re sleeping?” NO
“Does he keep you safe and warm?” NO
These words are pounding through my body as my feet pound the pavement. I can’t run away from these lyrics and I can’t run away from my life either. “Well I’ve been watching you for hours
It’s been years since we were born
We were perfect when we started
I’ve been wondering where we’ve gone”
I think to myself, “How did I get here? I was perfect when I started- we all are-when we are born. But life and its circumstances fucked me up big time.
My marriage therapist gave me a powerful metaphor. She said a crumbling marriage is like a burning house. You withstand the discomfort of the smoke and falling debris as the house burns down around you for a very long time. It is safer to stay in the discomfort of the known then to get out of the burning house to the unknown outside. You don’t know what is on the other side of that door. Finally you can’t take it anymore and you run for your life out of that burning building through that door. You don’t know what is on the other side, but you don’t care. You know whatever waits on the other side is better than pain of the inferno that tortures you.
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Full Moon Meditation
Date: Thursday, June 28
Where: My Healing Studio in Woodbury, NY
Description: Let's harness the energy of the full moon to release patterns, beliefs + energy that aren't serving you through guided meditation and Reiki healing. We are going to be cutting etheric (energetic cords) to people, places, situations, contracts, karma, habits etc. that take your power away.
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Are you a past-a-holic?
Someone recently said this word to me and I got chills. It’s a full blown addiction + disease for sure.
There are many people who are stuck in what has happened in the past and not living in present time.
And for those who do, your body can’t tell the difference that it happened already.
When we are constantly living in past memories, and often ones that are painful, your body responds by secreting the stress hormones, adrenaline and cortisol. This keeps your body in fight or flight mode.
Acceptance that the past is over is your first step in healing.
Keep bringing your focus to the present moment with your breath and noticing something that you see, hear, taste, smell and feel physically in your body.
The present moment is the only moment there is.