The City of London, London’s financial district. For years I visualised this being the place on earth where all my ambitions come true. Suit and tie and meetings and bonuses and all that jazz that comes with the corporate dream. How did I get this so wrong?
I got my first job here in 2013 and after the first euphoric months, reality took over pretty quickly. I realised that I live in this beautiful city only to be stuck behind a desk, gazing at the views of a life my heart was yearning to live outside, free of deadlines and projects I had little to no empathy for. Stressful exams, meaningless networking, sleepless nights because that was the ‘right thing to do’. That’s what everyone did so surely this is how it’s supposed to be, right?! But is this what life is really about? A never-ending race for Fridays and a depressing loath for Mondays? Being forced to live life on someone else’s terms with a constant urge to spend for ephemeral happiness?
This is a post for everyone out there feeling the same. Stuck in a life they thought they wanted but realised wasn’t for them when they got it. It’s ok to feel like that. It’s ok to make mistakes. What’s not ok is to settle for anything less than what makes you smile and breathe freely.
I’m forever grateful for everyone (good or bad) who have been part of my journey to self-awareness. I don’t have all the answers and don’t know where it will take me but one thing is for certain, there’s no way back. J.A.
P.S. Head over to my blog to see my favourite pictures I’ve taken of the city.
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